Isn’t it funny how sometimes our blogs create a completely opposite reality of what our lives truly are? It’s just far too easy to become seduced by ideal idea rather than reality, and I think occasionally that shows too often when I write. There are things I wish I could tell you, a lot of it I don’t out of respect for others, but often it is because I am afraid to step out of this cyber-shell I’ve created for myself, anonymity gives me the illusion of protection.
The past six weeks have been tough, physically and emotionally, and I’m having just as tough a time dealing with boundaries. I wish they weren’t necessary, but I’ve learned the hard way boundaries are good. I’m the type of person who wants to share everything; it’s the nature of my beast to do so.
I’ve learned many important things about myself lately, and in doing so I’m now able to release some anger and negative emotions that I have burdened for quite some time. Every day I remind myself that I am not responsible for the actions of others, and every day I remind myself how important forgiveness is, to myself as well as others, and even though I may never completely understand why the specifics of events unfold, I know in my heart what my own worth is and am grateful to be able to share it with those in my life I love.